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>>Days in the past
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2008.04.15 14:54:00 
 China's Loyal Youth  
      MANY sympathetic Westerners view Chinese society along the lines of what they saw in the waning days of the Soviet Union: a repressive government backed by old hard-liners losing its grip to a new generation of well-educated, liberal-leaning sophisticates. As pleasant as this outlook may be, it’s naïve. Educated young Chinese, far from being embarrassed or upset by their government’s human-rights record,rank among the most patriotic, establishment-supporting people you’ll meet.

    As is clear to anyone who lives here, most young ethnic Chinese strongly support their government’s suppression of the recent Tibetan uprising. One Chinese friend who has a degree from a European university described the conflict to me as “a clash between the commercial world and an old aboriginal society.” She even praised her government for treating Tibetans better than New World settlers treated Native Americans.

    It’s a rare person in China who considers the desires of the Tibetans themselves. “Young Chinese have no sympathy for Tibet,” a Beijing human-rights lawyer named Teng Biao told me. Mr. Teng— a Han Chinese who has offered to defend Tibetan monks caught up in police dragnets — feels very alone these days. Most people in their20s, he says, “believe the Dalai Lama is trying to split China.”

   Educated  young people are usually the best positioned in society to bridge cultures, so it’s important to examine the thinking of those in China.The most striking thing is that, almost without exception, they feel rightfully proud of their country’s accomplishments in the three decades since economic reforms began. And their pride and patriotism often find expression in an unquestioning support of their government,especially regarding Tibet.

    The most obvious explanation for this is the education system, which can accurately be described as indoctrination. Textbooks dwell on China’s humiliations at the hands off oreign powers in the 19th century as if they took place yesterday, yet skim over the Cultural Revolution of the 1960s and ’70s as if it were ancient history. Students learn the neat calculation that Chairman Mao’s tyranny was “30 percent wrong,” then the subject is declared closed. The uprising in Tibet in the late 1950s, and the invasion that quashed it, are discussed just long enough to lay blame on the “Dalaiclique,” a pejorative reference to the circle of advisers around Tibet’s spiritual leader, the Dalai Lama.

    Then there’s life experience — or the lack of it — that might otherwise help young Chinese to gain a perspective outside the government’s viewpoint. Young urban Chinese study hard and that’s pretty much it. Volunteer work,sports, church groups, debate teams, musical skills and other extracurricular activities don’t factor into college admission, so few participate. And the government’s control of society means there aren’t many non-state-run groups to join anyway. Even the most basic American  introduction to real life — the summer job — rarely exists for urban students in China.

     Recent Chinese college graduates are an optimistic group. And why not? The economy has grown at a double-digit rate for as long as they can remember. Those who speak English are guaranteed good jobs. Their families own homes. They’ll soon own one themselves, and probably a car too. A cellphone, an iPod, holidays — no problem. Small wonder the Pew Research Center in Washington described the Chinese in 2005 as “world leaders in optimism.”

    As for political repression, few young Chinese experience it. Most are too young to remember the Tiananmen massacre of 1989 and probably no body has told them stories. China doesn’t feel like a police state, and the people young Chinese read about who do suffer injustices tend to be poor — those who lost homes to government-linked property developers without fair compensation or whose crops failed when state-supported factories polluted their fields.

   Educated young Chinese are therefore the biggest beneficiaries of policies that have brought China more peace and prosperity than at any time in the past thousand years.They can’t imagine why Tibetans would turn up their noses at rising incomes and the promise of a more prosperous future. The loss of a homeland just doesn’t compute as a valid concern.

   Of course,the nationalism of young Chinese may soften over time. As college graduates enter the work force and experience their country’s corruption and inefficiency, they often grow more critical. It is received wisdom in China that people in their 40s are the most willing to challenge their government, and the Tibet crisis bears out that observation. Of the 29 ethnic-Chinese intellectuals who last month signed a widely publicized petition urging the government to show restraint in the crackdown, not one was under 30.

   Barring major changes in China’s education system or economy, Westerners are not going to find allies among the vast majority of Chinese on keyissues like Tibet, Darfur and the environment for some time. If thedebate over Tibet turns this summer’s contests in Beijing into theHuman Rights Games, as seems inevitable, Western ticket-holdersexpecting to find Chinese angry at their government will instead findChinese angry at them.

标签:tibet
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2008.04.15 14:51:00 
 Cut your crap,will you?  
Dear Elegant,
    I've been stalking ur articles on Time for several weeks.I have to say that u r the most talented journalist I've ever seen.
    Ur simile "circus" of Chinese Nationalities Committee is hilarious. It reflects on u,as a good writer,or rather a fictionalist,has done a wonderful job creating a preconception for those who know little about China.
    Ur follow-up articles about the protests hit up the headline of Time almost everyday. U must have done a lot of job making up stories for that. U r just beyond imagination. U r born in Hong Kong? Nice,huh? How's life in Beijing? People r too kind to u there, I guess.Now u have plenty of time speaking ill of China,while being treated like their friends,right?
    I do admit that China has a lot of flaws: the human right, the censorship, the pollution. But if u need explanation for any of those, find urself a comfortable chair and I can talk for several days. Just think of ur own country  decades ago, is it as liberal,clean,free as u think it is? Don't be too ridiculous to say no. We all know it's not like that. Then what's the point of smothering China to death with media  no matter what?
   Can u just stop a while and take a breath? Wipe ur eyes and see things clearly. Journalist s should be the one with integration,responsibility,insight and most important honesty. Ask urself,will u be eventually sick and tired of the same old arguments against China?

Echo

                  Not the People's Daily(on Time Chin Blog)
                                      By Simon Elegant

   Below is a mock/humorous edition of the overseas edition of the People's Daily currently circulating on the net. Every country has its nationalist nutters of course. But there's something particularly scary to non-Chinese about this sort of thing, which seems to reflect a combination of patriotic pride and lingering resentment over past wrongs (Opium War etc) that makes for a very volatile brew in a nation whose power and influence are growing so strongly. Historians sometimes cite similar mix as being prevalent in Germany between the wars. That's not to say China will turn into Nazi Germany. Just that it will be fascinating to watch attitudes change in coming years. I'd guess that as the country's self-confidence grows there'll be less of this sort of thing, which speaks more of insecurity than anything else.

Here are the headlines (thanks to David Cowhig for permission to use his translation):

-- Chinese Test Atomic Bomb in San Francisco
-- UN Headquarters Moves to Beijing
-- Premier Wen Jiaobao is accompanied by Gov. Ma Yingjiu on a visit to Taipei
-- Yao Ming recovers, leads Rockets to NBA championship
-- China Apologizes to U.S. for mistaken bomb attack on the Pentagon
-- Giant Earthquake in the Japanese islands; Chinese government sends
assistance; no survivors found thus far
-- Chinese Aircraft Carrier returns to Hawaii base to replenish food
and ammunition
-- Chinese Military Destroys East TurkmenistanTurkestan organization
-- Dalai Lama assassinated
-- Cross Taiwan Straits Bridge completed
-- China Establishes second patriotic military base on the Moon.


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2008.04.15 14:05:00 
 Tender is the night  
   I'm always wondering what life really is. Sometimes it's just one lie after another.I can't even bear a mere mention of it. The rest of the time it can be insanely wonderful,although I'm sadly drenched in fleeting moments.
   The cold rain yesterday was overwhelming. I was in the Migrant Children school, standing right on the stage made of broken stone. Wind squeezed in from the gap of the door, gloomy clouds were all over the sky, heavy and dense coldness broke into the classroom. Kids were still cute and nice, willing to learn everything Nick and I taught. I was just inevitably saddened by the atmosphere, sick and tired of a life in a limited sense.Nick is always quiet and polite. Working with him is always efficient and satisfying. It's just me. I'm living in the imagination, yet my feet are still on the solid ground. Life cheats me of the best things in the world.
   I couldn't think of her, it disarmed me. Her beautiful hair and seductive eyes were just part of the glamor. She was sitting there,eying me up and down. No one could get through that stare without being shuddered. A quick and unnoticeable shock went all through me. She was the girl who squeezed soul out of men, I could easily tell. She was embarrassed to see me. The past she was reluctant to  recall was knocking at the door. Sorry,the very existence of me,being patronized, was more than just embarrassment. The bed was burning, the heavy coat was burning, she just couldn't clear up the thought out of her mind. Impulsive night was nothing but a humiliation. I don't know why, but when I left there, I was upset beyond remedy. My soul was also squeezed out. I barely hold it to a standoff,more lethargically than ever.
    The attempting lure was just there, twenty minutes' bus ride away from me. I read the message for ten times, struggling whether or not to go. He was cute. He was hard working,serious yet humorous, decent and easygoing. I was head over heels in love with what he showed to almost all the girls. Now that he invited me, in a flirtatious tone,I was losing the grip. He could stand there and give me his straight face as being serious while also being humorous. Those images I saved during the conference was activated.It was hard as hell to resist the temptation...
    This morning I was sitting on my own, without going anywhere last night. I was shocked by the tragedy happened a few hours ago,again. The girl and the accidental call from another girl were the duel crises. The invitation was a huge distract. I should have gone there and washed my depression away,but I didn't. Something inside of me was telling me not to be light headed.
    It's not easy to go this far, and it's not easy to feel this fitted in.Gratitude is one thing, eternal feeling is another. I like laughing "pompously" as if no one is around, superficially enough, I love to stay like this forever. And I made my choice, half painfully,half joyfully.
    Go on with what life gives me, good or bad, I'll embrace it with stupidity. Though eventually it'll spelled as Wisdom, in its essential sense.
   
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2007.11.07 13:54:00 
 closer to closer  

If u r in love, do not watch this, I assure u that ur heart will be ripped out. If u have never been in love, do not watch this, both of us don’t want another love-phobia patient. Well, I wish I knew the aftermath from the very beginning, now there is no way back…

Amazing prelude, classical type of character Dan cast by Jude Law was walking through the crowd. He wore a pair of dull glasses, hiding his seductive eyes behind. Alice, hair like fire, striding across the street, with her head held up high. Bomb, a car ran into her, it seemed to me that she did that on purpose, which made the prelude even more dramatic. Dan rushed to her, thrilled to hear Alice come back to consciousness saying:” Hello, Stranger.” To me, this may well be a ridiculous encounter, but it magically added color to Alice---A boat drifting on the sea of this vulgar world, having no choice but to be as strong as nomads.

An obituary writer and a stripping girl, what a polarizing couple…Natalie Portman is among the top three gorgeous in my heart. She is glamorous, glorious and ruthlessly beautiful, and so was Alice. Dan was obsessed with Alice’s prettiness, smartness, and most apparently her rebellious wilderness. After her exhausting expedition, there finally came a man who Alice found joyfulness in. Until Anna appeared, everything seemed to be fine. She was a photographer, full of passion about people’s look, describing this world using her lens. Love is love, and it can never block off any affection. Dan fell for Anna, in a bizarre way. He kissed her out of eagerness, and tried to cover it up from Alice. Alice was a stripping girl! How could she pass for a tiny difference in men’s expression? She was furious, but the fury was restrained. She asked Anna to take some pictures for her, which put both Anna and Dan in embarrassment. Instinct of women told Anna that Alice knew sth, seeing through her misty eyes, Anna was done capturing Alice’s tears bursting out. It was a breathtaking picture, every detail of Alice's face was fabulous, even the glittering tears….

The new book Dan was working on was based on the story of Alice, but it was Anna that gave him the book’s name---The Aquarium. On a sex-matching website, Dan hooked up with doctor Larry in the name of Anna. What they talked about online was second to none nasty, but Larry liked it anyway. Dan lured Larry to the aquarium, but this joke brought Anna and Larry together. They got married, with respectful misgivings in their hearts---Anna knew she still loved Dan, Larry knew the existence of Dan would strain their marriage.

A gloomy day, Dan eventually let out the secret which he found hard to forget. He said to Alice:” This will hurt, but I have to say.  I've been with Anna. I'm in love with her. We've been seeing each other for a year. It began at her opening.” Alice soberly brushed by him and walked past him into the room. But finally, she cried and screamed. She couldn’t believe how he didn’t even try to resist the temptation since she had given him her all. Dan said:” Deception is brutal.” Alice was stop dead in her track, she packed up all her stuff—a bag, and slammed the door. Then Anna told Larry about Dan, too. Larry was a fickle-hearted and lustful man, and I think he had an omnipresent sense of possession. Anna was his wife, and Dan was only the joking Jupiter--the devil seed in their marriage. Larry was angrier about being deceived rather than about losing his beloved. He agreed to sign on the divorcing paper at the expense of having sex with Anna for the last time. Anna was convinced by the love she got from Dan, and she sacrificed her dignity. Kind of artist as Anna was, she still lost her track of understanding the essence of love. She was shocked when her sacrifice ended up disgusting Dan.Dan was such a narrow-spirited man that he pushed Anna back to Larry.

Dan was torn, he broke in Larry’s office, condemning him for all the things he did to Anna. Dan was cowardly, no doubt of it. That was hy he was derailed into looking for Alice, not Anna. He failed in this battle getting back Anna, but he summoned up courage to find Alice. She was found in a stripping pub, wearing a blonde wig displaying her body on the stage. They brought each other back like glue again, Alice was relieved cause Dan finally understood where he belonged. But unexpectedly, Dan asked about the night Larry saw Alice in the pub, whether they had sex together. Alice was frozen, she thought they could start over again, but this thought was shattered by Dan. Dan cared too much about his girls’ loyalty, while he himself was nothing but a woman-hunter. Alice was, again, disillusioned. She articulated, when Dan understood he shouldn’t have asked that question, :” I don’t love u anymore, goodbye.” She was tough, tough enough to see through Dan’s real personality. He wasn’t the one she could trust in.

I love the ending of this film. Anna got back to Larry, a man she hated. She thought she had no choice,but in fact, she was just too timid. Dan almost died missing Alice only to find that Alice was a fake name Jane got from a tomb. Alice should be JANE, but Jane had never told him this. All the things they went through was like never happened, what a disaster this was for Dan!Jane had had her last but winning revenge.

The same prelude came in again. This time it was Jane walking on the street of US, her long hair, her white tank top and the glow of confidence on her perfect face suggested that her new life had begun. Closer, if u want me, please get closer. But if u wanna leave me, fuck off.

Men may be mad at how the story was interwoven,  cause men are not always this shameless by hooking up with lovely girls. And women may be disappointing about love, which used to be sacred in their hearts. But take cheer, I believe What Closer wanted to tell the audiences was to treasure the love we pursued. Even when there are better ones distracting us, the final haven we would dwell in will always be the one we previously left behind.

标签:偷心
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2007.09.21 10:52:00 
 Nothing but memory  
      It will be my fifth week here soon,but it feels like five years...
          I was running out of control last night. Reading what I had written on my tiny diary, I was devoured by sadness.
          For those days we spent in the back yard of our temporary home, I should say a million thanks. Friendship nourished me,making a smart girl out of me.
          However, I feel that the older we are, the less senstive we will be. At least for me, I pay little attention to those things I treasure,cause all through my teen years I've had it enough. Not until last did I find myelf aloof with the damn indifference to everthing. It's like I am a leech inside a human body. The moment I need to suck blood, I will lose consciousness.Though I am still living, some parts have been deprive of from my heart. I find it really hard to concentrate even in something I like.
         I wrote about my memory which floored me last night. The breeze of late spring lingered in the air when we were riding bike home. There were songs we'd loved to sing, as no one else was listening. I still remember that night we held a party for Gemma's birthday.We sang so many old songs together,even danced for a while,though they were all thumbs. Later we played hide-and-seek, which people take leave to believe right now. Playing childish games needs courage now more than ever, and that's a tragedy. We are gradually cheated of the best thing in our life. The pure happiness of sharing, of tickling, of gossiping, of worrying for the homework....
         Girls, I miss u all.Peolpe are all addicted to their past with a strange passion. I'd rather look back than look forward right now. As an outsider to watch what we have gone through,I felt jealous, jealous of what we took granted for. Those nights we sat togther, watching film with profoundity. We screamed for the cute guys, our laughters roared up to the roof for the funny features, and those classic conversation were practiced again and again by us...Learning used to be so easy when I was with you. Those nights we slept on the same bed, talking about our stupid romance and our cult for those movie stars...I used to stay up so late just to share with u some essentials of life. I have to admit, no matter being forced or spontaneously, you are those who can understand me and are willing to do stupid things with me. Friendship was what I neglected at that times, I thought it would come in it's own way to me naturally. However, only when I lost them all had I noticed that all I could do to make up for it was to mourn.
           It's not that I am unhappy here in University, but that I can't find anybody to confide in. No aim is looming large upon the horizon as it used to be, I am feeling like a lost kid crying for a way out of the maze.
           We used to be together, though sometimes a little bit uptight for academic reasons. I enjoyed so much to stay like that forever!!
          Friendship always pays dividends......Love U as always!
标签:友谊
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2007.09.21 10:47:00 
 琐碎  

逃课生涯开始了。

终于有忍受不了的时候,一开始也许是靠着一点点的新鲜感支撑,但现在渐渐觉得那个老师两个小时讲的东西看半小时环球时报就明白了,至少不用看着他戴着眼睛的小平头发呆,英语说的那么烂还显摆还是有点点不安,走进图书馆总是很释怀的感觉,虽然样子很丑,这个图书馆还真是满肚子学问的,很喜欢那种在书架之间穿梭的感觉,一本一本落满时间灰尘的书瞪着它们的大眼睛,掸去心上浮躁的阴影。

浮躁,一直都很浮躁,一方面对班里的状况失望,一方面提不起精神来做自己真正应该做的事情。打死里觉得自己不该只躲在这里,直到现在才慢慢认识到目光短浅有多可怕。一开始,人际的问题自己觉得很复杂,现在想起来其实没什么,至少住在一个地球上,有时候是该有让步,自己也不会少块肉。

每天疯忙,结果自己不自己忙什么,这是最最痛苦的事情。社团倒是一大堆,其实也学到些皮毛的东西,但感觉很不够充实,心里的渴望没有被填满,于是觉得很累赘,找不到方向。虽然很喜欢媒体行业,但是讲起中国古典文化史什么的还真是想睡觉,慢慢发现很长时间没有写过什么了,是不是对中文的感觉都退化了?有时候,好怀念高中还有数学题做的焦虑,至少有实实在在的东西需要不停担心,于是闲下来的时候才真真的安静,这么一直浑浑噩噩下去,反而觉得非常非常累了。

心静不下来。就比如看书竟然会看不进去,处于游离状态,很难受,什么时候能结束?还好很庆幸自己提早意识到了这种潜藏的危险,玩了9个多月了,真的不适应再目标明确地学习了….

周六的志愿者,很期待呢,不知道什么时候开始热衷于做这些,学校的世界对我来说真的暂时只有寝室这么大,我快要窒息了甚至在校外,在国外我都有比在这里多的能讲话谈天的人,渐渐习惯了她们的努力她们的沉默,我们不是一个世界,我们理应这样维持冷冷的热情。

在高中也有想过到大学会课业很重,但是现在这么多的课和作业真的是没有料到的,怪不得人们总想回到过去,忙到不记得过去的时候是年轻力壮的时候,等到什么时候想起了那些细节,我们就早老了….现实和梦想当然是有差距了,我希望自己能慢慢调节好的心态,这样一个沉淀的过程,我不能老是搅和搅和,有些东西真的如果这四年不做就再也没有机会了。

在寝室里,我睡得最晚起的最晚,大抵是看作懒惰的人了。我的东西从来就是要找一千遍才找的到,大抵是被看作粗心大意的人了。我的被子从来没叠过,衣服从来没叠过,大抵是被看作邋遢的人了。我的书借的最多看完的却最少,大抵是被看作没时间概念的人了。我的行踪很诡异西飘飘东晃晃,大抵是被看作最无所事事的人了。我的朋友最五彩缤纷,大抵是被看作乱交朋友的人了。我坐不正站不正,大抵是被看作随随便便的人了…..可是我不是BEAT GENERATION我是好孩子,很好很好的孩子…..

开始每期买《外滩画报》,迷恋它的简单和奢华,迷恋上海….一个温州女孩说她不喜欢上海因为它是个很浮躁的城市,是吧,我们浮躁到一起去了,绝配…要我怎么忍耐北京?干燥的天气简直要把我的脸吹裂了,BABY油都没办法....还有那可怕的北京话....宝贝宝贝叫的真好听,可是同学,我们真的不熟啊?...

在大一就这么多无奈了,真就是我的作风….

标签:大一
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2007.09.02 00:43:00 
 流年  
文字成为一种奢侈

    没有能分享的,心里白茫茫的空洞

    已经开始自己亵渎自己的圣经

    一页一页撕碎了神圣的信仰

    失去了触觉,也许敏感演化成了一种病态

    好像拨云见日的瞬间被阳光刺伤了双眼

    耷拉下手臂,不敢再挥袖

    还记得小时候腥腥的江水味道

    站在桥上想要跳进她怀抱的欲望

    拉索的雄壮和她的妩媚,就这么抽象地活着是解脱

    盘亘在头顶的不再是云彩

    是灰蒙蒙的暗无天日的眼帘

    不敢睁开眼,面对事实很残酷,我宁愿活在过去的时光里

    骤然间变得很幼稚,想想就这么算了吧,本来可以不这么累

    好像发条锈了一个世纪,咯吱咯吱把时间的歌唱得太忧伤

    用力把它扔向墙壁,粉碎的是心是梦境

    开始听不懂自己的话,木偶一样受人控制

    曾经从一本一本的书里面活过来

    现在好像要一本一本吐出来

    对这堵白墙反胃,对这摞我不爱的书反胃

    对这个伤害我的城市反胃,对明天反胃

    给我一剂药,我只能用孤单疗伤

    没有清晨黄昏,只有16层太接近天空的不胜寒

    连走走都是黄金的施舍

    闷在这里,忍受嗟来之食

    抬头的勇气都没有,怎么了,你不是很享受自由的么

    翅膀折了,还能飞吧?

    

标签:大学生活
作者 waziaaa 阅读全文 |  评论()  | 人气() |  引用()  | 推荐 | 
 
2007.07.17 14:42:00 
 迷茫茶花  

   满怀期望翻开<茶花女>想缓解一下我的空虚感。

   一个法国人,怀着对一位素未谋面的烟花女子的敬畏,花高价买下了她的一本《玛农》,然而这本书的主人又怀着对这位烟花女子的愧疚,把他们的故事倾诉了出来。

   原本只是一个挺典型的欧洲贵族与下层社会的矛盾爱情故事,叙述的却没有什么激情,不免让人有些失望。

   拉尔芒怎么会如此轻易爱上一个烟花女子,如此幼稚地哭哭啼啼,什么都有心猜忌一下,真正需要他的勇气和忠诚的时候,他又撇下玛格丽特不管,我想这样的男人终究是没什么好喜欢的。这个故事中,只有拉尔芒和玛格丽特的角色比较鲜明,其他的人物都是暗淡而且竟然没有什么优点的,那样的社会多么恐怖啊。

   《茶花女》的悲情故事彰显了欧洲社会对女性的一种低调的歧视,无论是烟花女子的悲惨遭遇,公爵伯爵的滥情事迹,还是真正相爱却被现实阻隔的结合,女性无疑都是处在下层的地位。老处女,烟花女子,待嫁的富家女子….她们都是社会的牺牲者。

   早有听说过欧洲纵欲主义。只是一面之缘,拉尔芒便想得到玛格丽特,然而只是一餐饭他便成功了,他称这是爱,我却觉得很突然,也许因为茶花女的故事是转述而缺少了生动性,我对这样看似坚贞的爱情不以为然。玛格丽特是个挥霍无度的女人,如果真的是爱,她为什么还需要背着拉尔芒要那些伯爵公爵们资助她,就算再多的债也不比精神的折磨痛苦,如果真的是爱,为什么她还花明知道拉尔芒不容易负担的起的钱?她本可以收拾家当甘愿过清苦生活,但她却依然被套在烟花世界的网里面,她不该只听拉尔芒父亲一面直言而不辞而别,她自己觉得最纯洁的爱情这么草草结束,让人不明白为什么。拉尔芒更是个没大脑的年轻人,他自觉没有那些伯爵公爵忘恩负义,他自觉在不通报名字而默默探望玛格丽特是无比高尚的,他自觉自己的爱情可以伟大到把亲情放在一边,我倒是十分讨厌他,成天粘着玛格丽特一如初恋般的猜忌妒忌愤恨而又那么容易掉进温柔乡转述的作者倒是很同情他们,甚至默默欣赏玛格丽特的美丽和勇气,的确,玛格丽特能在爱情的力量下面变得坚强,但是他们之间脆弱的关系又让人心碎。这样的纵欲主义在那时的人们心里根深蒂固了,直到玛格丽特死了,拉尔芒才开始补救他愚蠢的错误,不停哭哭啼啼,挪坟墓看望玛格丽特的姐姐….其实这已经无济于事了。

   一个结构相当简单的故事,无怪是最好的舞台剧本了,可以有很大的想象空间,主题也无非坚贞无非珍惜和理解,挺平淡无奇的,倒是《玛农》吸引了我,对于名著来说,《茶花女》差口气,但是剧本却可以平地生青天。

   没读《茶花女》之前,我一直这么想象着:一个悲惨的烟花女子偶尔也卖一下茶花,遇到真正爱自己的人,以为找到了归宿,那人却因为家庭压力放弃了她,而她也在重病中死去…. 照这样看来,我想象的茶花女形象其实更加有立体感了,不是么?唉但是无论怎么说,《茶花女》也是本好书了,只要你有一颗接受荒唐的宽容心,又或许我没有高深到能理解它的真正含义罢。

   读了这本书,真的庆幸现在是新世纪啦~~

标签:茶花女,法国旧社会,贵族爱情
作者 waziaaa 阅读全文 |  评论()  | 人气() |  引用()  | 推荐 | 
 
2007.07.12 17:51:00 
 风逝  

 关上深绿色的书皮,深深叹了口气,心里有一种难以控制的痛苦,在这五天里面,我无可自拔地陷入了《飘》的世界……

厚厚的译本原先是让我却步了的,但是某种难以抵挡的魔力却让我有勇气翻开那沉重的南北战争史。我原本是不懂爱情的,没有机会去了解没有理由去靠近,所以我曾经很浪漫地以为《飘》是一本漫溢着贵族气氛的爱情读本,我败在战争要爆发之前的奢靡,战争爆发之时的恐惧和战争爆发后的沉默中,我彻底败了,原来这样世界闻名的著作以这样深沉的方式去揭开了我心里面很微小的感情盲点,哭了绝望了不是因为爱情没有了,而是终于明白了有时候愚昧的正是我们自己追求的,而我们所放弃的在角落里偷偷哭泣,我们所错过的我们所下狠心不想再记起的,已经永远永远地离我们而去了。

还在读第一本的时候,心里是兴奋的,因为思嘉的性格和自己有几分相似,而她多出的那一部分勇敢又让我觉得激动,难以抑制的激动,谁不会有这样的虚荣谁不会有那种想要追求梦想的欲望,欲望在一定程度上可以成为上进的动力,无论多么困难,哪怕战火烧天哪怕热爱的土地贫瘠了哪怕自己的深爱的人在死亡边缘挣扎,这样的欲望,无论是体面是不体面,都是救命的良药。不禁把自己想成了生活在思嘉旁边的透明人,了解这个世界的历史,冷眼看她光着脚在被掠夺的土地上来来回回,回想这样的世界,是不是我也遗忘了什么呢?那时候多喜欢思嘉呀,甚至有些痴迷地憎恨艾希礼不懂风情的软弱,思嘉就是人性最真实的展现,她的欲望,就是勇气。

 第一次,从思嘉眼里看见瑞德,我就喜欢他,喜欢他的洒脱喜欢他如此冷静的仓皇,我哪里想象的到,他对爱情那样凄凉而又绝望的努力,最后只是一个短暂的回头,只是一句简单的对不起,他说:“再伟大的爱情也是会消磨殆尽的….”他是坚强的,他甚至是无可奈何地正直的,他只是太聪明,所以才被称作狡猾,投机,我为他心痛,我如此热爱这样的男人,一个了解自己爱的人所有的残酷自私卑鄙却仍然不顾一切爱她的男人,我为他所受的伤害而痛心疾首,那种痛就好像世界上一个绝好的男人在刀刃下用他黝黑的眼珠绝望地凝视着天空。不喜欢艾希礼的蓝眼睛,甚至思嘉痴迷的金色头发,甚至那些对他对书本对知识的热爱,他没有勇气面对时代的淘汰,他对思嘉的爱在媚兰的悉心照顾下竟然也胆小的缩成一团,他甚至没有思嘉那样宁愿放弃一切的决心,也许他只是被思嘉的美貌吸引了吧,但他的怯懦让我觉得呕心。

读到第二本才发现,其实《飘》并没有低俗到只谈论贵族的爱情,这本有灵性的著作之所以经久不衰也不仅仅是因为它对爱情独到的见解,我想有恋爱经历的人也许更能了解,爱情是一段人生经历,它最能解释的也许就是生命的意义---用最浅显的表现方式….

在思嘉跑过浓雾的街道而终于意识到自己的愚蠢时,我想起过去他对艾希礼所做出的所有努力,甚至下嫁自己不爱的男人甚至在下流人渣里想办法赚钱甚至维护她一直不怎么喜欢的媚兰甚至….这正是“蓦然回首,那人却在灯火阑珊处”的真实写照,只是现在更加悲惨,思嘉自己回想着过去:艾希礼是唯一她的石榴裙无法迷倒的男人,而他又偏偏那么迷人,她把少女时代编织的梦想穿在他身上,十多年来一直在追赶着这抹颜色,到头来却发现自己其实不是喜欢穿它的人而是那永远放不下的少女情怀,而拨开浓雾,她已经失去了瑞德那颗看似坚强却无比脆弱的心,每次噩梦醒来都是瑞德的宽阔肩膀给她安慰,她到现在才回想起瑞德为她有意无意付出的一切已经积累成了神圣的过去,然而她已经揉破了那张回去的船票….

邦妮死了,瑞德的心也快要死了,他那么精心掩饰着自己的情感,他习惯挖苦和讽刺,可谁知道他是世界上最爱思嘉的人呢?他好像花花公子一般,说“除非这个女人我除了结婚无法得到,否则我绝不会考虑结婚”,他不失神气地向思嘉求了婚,报着对她回心转意的一点点信心,那时我还抱着书祈祷思嘉不会拒绝,她太忠实于自己的梦想,其实瑞德才是真正能给他依靠的人…..邦妮的出生使思嘉更加相信自己应该对艾希礼执行肉体的忠诚,这真是好笑的想法,然而又何尝不让人心痛呢?已经是接近结尾的时候她还是这样固执,直到邦妮死了,女神般的媚兰也死了,她才仓皇地悟到,是瑞德用他宽容的心和热忱的爱给了她一切,她跌跌撞撞跑进温暖的家,却发现瑞德已经在等待中苍老了心情,她在塔拉的热情给她留下了一句话: tomorrow is another day.作者是不是想说,思嘉会振作的呢?她怎么如此热爱自己笔下的思嘉呢?其实我不喜欢她,她太能勇敢地重新站起来,而这又给她带来了太多不肯认输的因素,其实媚兰又有什么不好呢?用精神来伟大,更是一种值得敬佩的品质。其实,我想说的是,思嘉是新时代的女性,她只是没有经验,不屑于从媚兰那里学到旧时代的优点,然而这么多年过去了,我们依旧还是应当感谢思嘉的,毕竟她把新时代带给了我们!

不知道为什么,我会哭的那么伤心,这样炎热的夏天,小表妹还在旁边恼人地吵闹着,我却仿佛走进了思嘉的世界,眼泪灼伤了脸上的皮肤,直到关上书的那一刻,还深深感到心里的痛苦,疯狂地爱着瑞德,他的悲伤让我无法克制自己的眼泪,他对思嘉的爱如此赤裸裸,又被他掩饰地如此严密,直到自己被消磨到没有了往日的希望,他还依然这样镇定我在想,其实瑞德就是一个男性的思嘉,他们本可以相爱得到最珍贵的幸福,可是他们都彼此错过,好像有一句话这样说:世界上最遥远的距离,不是海角天涯,而是你坐在我身边却不知道我爱你。

作者留下了一个不像结局的结局,不知道是不是有些人正希望有一部续集呢?可是我已经无法鼓起勇气读下去,仿佛跟着这本书走了十年,已经深感疲惫了,也许作者的那句tomorrow is another day最能概括一切,至少还有重新开始的勇气!

对瑞德的热爱,这个夏天最刻骨铭心。

标签:<飘>,思嘉,乱世佳人,Gone with the wind
作者 waziaaa 阅读全文 |  评论()  | 人气() |  引用()  | 推荐 | 
 
2007.07.04 16:02:00 晴
 心房子 平静 

没有很快地看完<芒果街的小屋>,每次都会想很久很久,那些蓝天软绵绵的寂寞占满了的童年…

这是一本多么不正式的英文读物,一本有语法错误,有许多奇怪引用的日记一样的书…Esperanza是每个小女孩的过去:那种穿上旧高跟鞋仓皇但是幸福地走在大街小巷的兴奋,渴望住得和星星一样近,晚上只有夜风能吵醒自己的房子,没有新鞋子穿而独自躲在角落的孤闷,三个人骑一辆自行车的疯狂,还有那一次突如其来的初吻,如此尴尬如此温暖….

不想深究什么种族的问题,每个人在芒果街上找到的截然不同,她们哪里有肤色,我读到的只是一串一串的青芒果,香香涩涩的涨满了夏天的味道。今天很闷热,Coldplay的声音在徜徉,芒果街所有的故事化作照片一样的心情点点滴滴融进潮湿的空气里。这样纯真的叙述里何尝没有生活的黑暗:想脱离父母太早出嫁而被禁在新家的Sally,她和男孩子玩的kiss and give的游戏让我对她的美一点都不感兴趣,反而是拎着砖头和木棍准备打过来的Esperanza让我爱之不及,她的愤怒她的不解她的羞赧,她自嘲:”that’s a joke I didn’t get.”她想挖一个洞钻进去,她对着老树喃喃自语,然后慢慢释然….而Liar Sally再次伤害了她脆弱又坚强的心,她没有如约出现,而一个白人男孩强行吻了Esperanza,这给她带来的伤害决不仅仅是他身上的难闻味道…到了后来,Esperanza居然还依然同情Sally的遭遇,是不是太早出卖了灵魂?美丽也有错的时候…

  这44个短小的章节里,我喜欢写她名字的,写她抱着爸爸哭泣的,写她和小伙伴们看云的,写她和叔叔一起跳舞的,写她模糊感觉一个男孩的炙热眼神的,写她观察胖女人不愿意说英语不愿意下楼的,写她被欺骗被歧视她却能用童心融化伤痛的,写他渴望一座属于自己的山上的房子,写她在三个神秘老姐妹面前许下为那些走不出芒果街的人而努力的…她童言无忌的叙述把幼时人们都有过的思想的片断粘贴成了一个亮黄色的芒果街。听见妈妈说:If we win the lottery, we’ll….” 她会stop listening,把一个旧音盒的声音描述成as if you were running your fingers across the teeth of a mental comb,不知是同情还是理解,她说她知道Marin在等a car to stop, a star to fall, someone to change her life.男孩子说的:“I am in love with those two  green apples you call eyes, give them to me why don’t you?” Esperanza从来没有经历过什么,但她却常常对自己解释她看不懂的事实,如此头头是道如此不知疲乏….

 有很多句子是很有趣的,Nobody looked up not once the day Angel Vargas learned to fly and dropped from the sky like a sugar donut, just like a falling star, and exploded down to earth without even an “Oh”….作者的比喻总是这般有灵性…You can never have too much sky. You can fall asleep and wake up drunk on sky, and sky and keep you safe when you are sad.我想我最理解这句话,多少次在看不见边际的蓝天下浅浅睡去,醉了的时间摇摇摆摆再也走不动了…

记得Esperanza的诗:

I want to be

Like the waves on the sea

Like the clouds in the wind

But I ‘m me

One day I’ll jump

Out of my skin

I’ll shake the sky

Like a hundred violins…..

会的,新房子会找到的,心房子也会找到的,只要你有回来的勇气….

标签:芒果街上的小屋
作者 waziaaa 阅读全文 |  评论()  | 人气() |  引用()  | 推荐 | 
 
2007.06.29 10:05:41 
 侧耳  

我喜欢地下通道里昏暗的歌曲
流浪的吉它曲搅动夏日的沉闷气息
自然的共鸣效果,清凉而又孤单的质感
不是丝绸,是软软的棉布,粗糙却大气
他总是不说话,总是把表情藏在压低的帽沿下面
不知道是不是亵渎,但是也许一块钱能帮助他
我走过,他的歌声放慢了些,他在微笑
没有什么能比这样的努力更加有艺术效果

不敢做无意义的停留
不愿遮挡他迷离的眼神
他的喉咙嘶哑,满是沧桑的黑色装扮
我知道他还很年轻,或许他只是没有钱继续流浪
最后一班车将把他带到风的尽头
天有多高地有多远眼神有多苍白
我想问他自由是什么滋味
自由是不是和他离开家的时候心情一样难以割舍
是不是可以,拿得起又放得下…..

还是非常害怕身体扭曲的乞讨孩子
同情也不是不同情也不是
不明白谁在指使他们
只是心有不甘,只是心存余悸
原本他们只需要守着一方净土安静地生活
谁又想做良心的剥削者呢?
为什么不用这样的年轻的心做一次旅行
也许你们可以从魔窟中脱离,虽然你们没有音乐….

第二次经过的时候他已经走了
也许他的流浪只能用几支歌表达
而他又怕我们厌倦了
于是他背着吉他离开了,在那样悠长的晚霞中
他取下自己的宽沿帽,当作扇子
扇去那么一丝丝的寂寞
有时候一个人,如此深沉的声音
不想太冷静,跟夏天一起抖落汗珠
淹没一整日的干渴,心脏膨胀
只要还有一个人如我般痴迷
他就不会再为流浪的明天烦恼
每一支歌都想送走过去的凄凉

我想有追求自由的勇气
其实我本来就一无所有
不存在放弃还是舍不得现在的安稳
看我的吉他还躺在灰尘堆满的角落
谁还能跟她一起唱情非得已,或者滥俗的丁香花
弹吉他根本弹的就是一种心情
也许自由有百变的乐谱,可是乐手总是最明了
透明的心情此时正荡漾在蓝波碧涛上
哪里有水哪里就有风帆可以鼓满的地方….

还是那个昏暗的地下通道
头顶滚滚车流和熔融骄阳
流浪的吉他悠然地哼着水一样的歌声
城市都要入睡…
陌生又熟悉的音符
堵塞了热浪的侵袭
想抬起头,呼吸如此明丽的一秒钟

 

标签:吉它
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2007.06.27 16:22:00 
 泡沫  
惊谔中发现
只有五个月我就将不再是seventeen
十八岁是不是真的好象人们说的那么美好?
是不是什么都可以重新开始?....
不想回顾,不常回顾.....
过去的这么多年......

记得过去忘着二年级的班牌
非常非常渴望明年戴上红领巾
结果现在好象一下刹不了车
拒绝不了长大的冲动
什么时候早上起来看着镜子
自己下了一跳
我曾经扎着的羊角辫
我曾经自豪地穿在身上的荷叶裙
哪儿去了,可以发呆一整天的乳白色时光....

喜欢夏天的香气
不说童年,也能记得那么清楚的心动
风筝挣揣,甜风依旧
柠檬一样清新的十七岁和过去
渐渐淡掉的新奇,渐渐模糊掉的喜怒哀乐
其实我本来忘记了没一天都有不一样
也许明天我就不会再这么小心
走这样的漫漫长路

夕阳下的怀念如此浪漫
我不再奔跑在临江的堤坝
我有我的人字拖,懒懒地走走
反正有明天可以挥霍
小朋友和老人的心态总是相似
于是我的心态这样浮躁
容易绝望.....
用力呼吸潮湿空气里的小颗粒
大雨过后大太阳的奢侈
难道我只会风花雪月?...

怎么用祭奠的方式结束
浴火重生也不过如此
窗外梧桐都已经被砍成巨大的树桩
年轮一圈一圈框成不规矩的圆
一年雨水充沛,一年干旱酷热
就这样,所有的时间被冲刷地没有痕迹

如果,如果真的有来生
我愿意站成一棵树
一半在风里飞扬,一半在土里徜徉....
至少我明白这世界除了生命
没有永恒....

Look at me I'm only seventeen
The many years between us
Have been broken
Look at me under the evergreen
Life is a mellow dream
Almost unspoken


By the way
You said you're here to stay
Let me love you til tomorrow
Then it will last a year and a day
Maybe we're here to forget


我要听她,浅吟低唱.....




标签:十七
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2007.06.26 10:57:03 
 门徒  

                                                              The Protégé
      This is a wonderful film cast by Daniel Wu, which is full of unorthodox ideas translating a hidden emotion in a perfect way. He is nothing but an actor in the real life, actually, what he plays is sort of an actor as well. As a policeman who has never been in the police office for seven years, he is also a protégé of the illegal drug-selling group who makes his identity a secret.
      I can clearly see from his eyes that he is so torn between choosing from his captain and the outlaw he is investigating. When an actor does really well in films, we can totally forget who he in fact is. Even without his good-looking face, I feel obsessed with this man wearing v-collar T-shirt. He carefully kneels down for a dying dog which is neglected by the passers-by; He helps a desperate woman with drug abuse in an invisible way; He sleeps with the one who loves him so much that he feels guilty to turn down (maybe he is forced to do so, who knows….); He jumps out of the window on eighth floor only to save that old man in charge of the drug-processing factory….I just love the last minute he hugs the little girl, and trying to forget the past he went through.
     Another actress who pushes this film to the climax is Jingchu Zhang. Her performance is beyond any possible description. I bet she has never taken drugs before, but her role as a woman who is trapped into the devil spirit of drugs is definitely intangible. She may have done a lot of working looking deeply into those addicts. The way she quivers, cries, screams, begs is so vivid that I can’t even believe my eyes. Even when she is looking for the thrill of body in a vulgar way, I feel exactly the same. She is a great actress, sacrificing her all to the role she plays, revealing a 3-dimension episode. The roles she and Daniel plays have a very ambiguous relationship. One is a policeman who has to live a humble life, one is a mother who has to live under the fright of her addicted husband. There was chemistry between them at the time Daniel met Jingchu in the window opposite to him. He helped her with her kind heart, but later was scared by her weird behaviors when she is taking the drug. He was lost in thoughts….Why do people take drugs? It’s not tasty or funny…..
     A Fen (Jingchu) was finally killed by her cruel and cold-hearted husband with too much drug. A Li (Daniel) found her corpse (hope it won’t be too bad to say so) on her sofa with mice running all over. He was totally depressed and intimidated…Realizing the horrible effect of drugs, he turned his boss in to the police. However, this directly led to the suicide of him. He lost the one he wanted to save and the one he wanted to protect….He lay in the sofa and thought it was the emptiness of life which killed their passion for living on. Emptiness…
He took A fen’s daughter as his own in the end, and they hugged each other in front of the memory of A fen…His face is no longer twisted by the reality, and his pain is alleviated… This is a world full of wonders if they keep on going.
    I should say this is not merely a typical Hong Kong film; it conveys a meaning of trusting and being trusted, of loving and being loved, of betraying and being betrayed. You may find yourself end up groaning deeply in your heart, cause you can hardly bear some of the bloody truth. However, you may also keep a track of faith deeply rooted in a film.
    The protégé…The director deliberately combined some different impacts together, sometimes making people laugh, sometimes disgusted, sometimes exhilarated, sometimes greatly frightened. It’s just like a roller coaster which takes you to anywhere possible in the emotional part of your body.
    Try it and you’ll never be regretful.


 

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2007.06.22 19:49:00 
 逃之夭夭  

被录取为志愿者了,做Harvard hascr的助教,去年的辉煌今年将会更上一层楼.....我知道,有人会把我从空虚中解救出来的!!今天在健身房洒了一天的汗....那里的塑料球其实很好玩....还有教练都是十足的美女....心都醉了.....我要逃之夭夭了,这样的狭窄空间,我已经无法呼吸了...
Dear applicant,

Thank you for yourapplication for HSYLC 2007!  This year, we received far more applications than we are able to accommodate: approximately 400 enthusiastic  applications were submitted.  The caliber of individual application meant that competition for places was especially fierce. 

Because of the exceptionally high quality of your application and interview, we are happy to offer you a position as a volunteer for HSYLC 2007. 

Your position as a volunteer would include many important responsibilities during the coming months as we prepare for HSYLC 2007, and thus we are asking that—if you decide to accept our offer—you have frequent internet access throughout the month of July and be able to submit work online.   You will also need to arrive on campus by August 2nd to help with immediate preparations for the conference.

As a volunteer, you will be participating in HSYLC 2007 either as a course assistant (CA) or as part of the administrative staff - we will inform you of your precise position shortly . The 39 CAs will assist the Harvard seminar leaders in teaching their seminars by researching and providing supplementary reading materials as well as facilitating discussions within the classroom. The 27 members of the administrative staff will help HAUSCR officers with the daily administrative tasks of the conference as well as with important preconference preparations, such as logistics and PR. Our decision will be based upon your past leadership experiences, teaching experiences, expertise, and former involvement with HSYLC. Please let us know if you have a strong preference for either position. We will do our best to keep these preferences in mind when we make our decision.

Please inform us of your decision to accept or reject your position as volunteer as soon as possible.  The very last date to send us your decision is the June 24th.

Thank you for your application—and we are looking forward to working with you to build a successful 2007 conference!

 

Sincerely,

HSYLC 2007

标签:哈佛
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2007.06.14 17:53:47 晴
 回到Coldplay的角落  
不想再晾晒无知空虚的自己,累了倦了,不如停下来...
也许我走的太远了,不如回到原来的角落...
标签:Coldplay
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Wash my soul here above heaven